me&him

when i go home a while ago, i heard a shocking thing from my cousin

i was cooking at that time, and as usual, she accompany me and we chatted this and that

until that conversation came out

my cousin : hey, i tell you something ^__^

me : eh?

my cousin: a few days ago your father told me something

me : -___- what?

my cousin : he said that he wonder why you could freely laugh with someone else, but not with him

me : hah???

my cousin : yes...and he said that he would thought many times before he talked to you because everything he said seemed to be wrong for you :)

me :.........................................................

really...

i was touched

yes..all of the content in that conversation was right

absolutely...

that's me

that's what iam

and after that conversation, i feel like i was the most mean daughter in this big..big world

i was so mean

even to my father

many things caused this

but that's even can't be the reason i'm doing that to my father, right?

i love him so much

but we fight often

so many differences

oh..no..no

so many similarities between us

that's why i'm scared, and i try as much as i could, not to be the same with him

i don't wanna looks like him

maybe that's why we fight often

but when i'm far from him

i'm start to "what i've done to him??? i'm so mean!!"

just like that...

that's why we never talk much recent years

actually, i didn't talk much to him

but, after that conversation i think i have to change

i have to try little by little

and..in that evening..we -my father and i- have some chat

a good start :)