Almost

so...here's a story

i have this person kept in a room of my heart for about three years
but in the end, i couldn't make it
its a long time enough for me, so that i need more than three years to forget this person
i can't call it Tabula Rasa yet, because i still can't meet him

not this time, when i don't have anyone to hold on

but there is something i didn't realize
along that time there is someone else enter that room
but i kept on my denial
because he's a friend of mine
because...
because so many reasons i made up

but unconsciously, i always compare anyone i met with him

'if its him, he wouldn't do this to me'
'if its him, i would never be like this'
'if its us, we will be like that..not like this'

those kind of thought

and that's why, i never made it with any relationships so far
 

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